Stewing

... on many things. Can't go into it right now due to time, but struggling with the idea that I've gotten it into my head that as a special brethren chick i have to be better (behaved, taught, disciplined, holy, etc ... ) than everyone else. this gets me to feeling superior, and all generous about 'cutting slack' for those who weren't raised in as privileged position as i (?!), so I forgive them their "less than perfect" ways. Excuse me while I work on perfection over here, enjoy the mudpit you were born into over there.

That's putting it in as extreme a light as I can, but somewhere in there is the truth of it all. Partly coming from this post, and partly from a conversation w/a friend as a result of that (thanks D) and currently precipitated by the movie Dogville I watched last weekend.