Part 1 is over here if you missed it.
What do you do to keep from reaching your wits end? What’s your favorite indulgence?
I take Lexapro daily to keep me from going over the edge. After months of knowing that I was getting worse and worse I talked with Sue, my MIL, Brenda, my SIL, and THEN Shawn. Shawn was told that I was making an appointment to see the doctor and why. He was freaked out. I mean, he wanted to quit his job and be home with me freaked out.
I went into the appointment knwing she could put me on meds, but expecting her to say, get some sleep, take time away from the kids and you’ll be fine. She asked questions that seemed like they weren’t important, took notes, and asked how I felt about medication. My answer was if she thought I needed it I’d do it. I walked out with 8 weeks worth of samples.
I am a much happier person now. I still have days where I don’t feel too happy, but it is so much better now than it was 2 months ago. No matter how much chocolate I had it just didn’t help.
I’d have to say that my favorite indulgence is the annual pass that the girls and I have for Disneyland. I’ve been wanting them for two years. This year I told Shawn I was getting them no matter what. Then he went and bought me a new wedding band and camera. I wavered for a moment and then said, “nope, I’m still getting passes.”
As much as they cost, we are definitely getting our use out of them.
I also love my camera. I take so many photos I don’t have anough time to process them all. I take photos of everything, food, flowers, feet, building, signs, and of course my girls.
My Grandma quite frequently asks me if I’m trying to waste film. I always laugh a little and say, “Nope, I’m just playing with my camera.”
Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
I couldn’t tell you where I’d be in ten years. I can tell you I’ll be a wife for almost 22 years, and a Mom for almost 21, but that’s about it. I’m just hoping I won’t be a Grandma in 10 years. Which is entirely possible because Rapunzel will be 21 in May 2019.
What’s the last book you read?
I have one book that I know you’ll enjoy. I have about 20 more pages to read and then I don’t know what I’m going to do, maybe read it again. I like it that much. Oh, I guess I should tell you what it is huh?
It is an awesome book, really. I know some people don’t like her, but that’s their opinion not mine. Check out her blog. If you like what she has there you’ll love the book.
What’s one thing that most people would never guess about you?
Most people would never guess that I’m on anti-depressants, because they never would have thought that I’d need them. I’m the person other people go to when they need to talk.
I never thought that I would need meds that’s for sure. Shawn and I joked about it at first. I’d say, “I can’t believe I’m on meds.” He’d say, “I can’t believe I have a wife who needs meds.” It was a way for us to cope with the fact that I needed them and our way of acknowldeging how we felt without having to discuss it overe and over again. While derpression is no laughing matter, those two lines worked for us.
I’m pretty sure I won’t be on them forever, but I am afraid of getting off of them. Luckily I “know” people who have gotten off the meds and survived, even if it was only because their families locked them in a room and slipped them food through a door three times a day.
I can and will beat my depression. I just need help doing it.
Thanks again CC!