Talking to a girlfriend last month, I was reminded once again that planning shorter-term sacrifices for long-term gain was part of life. Living with an idealistic husband, on variable freelance incomes (in this economy!), it's easy to lose perspective and faith in God: two things I can't live without.
I have a dream. A big one perhaps, but I can taste it. It involves rolling forested land, hand-built cabins, a treehouse, a stone home, some animals, a big garden, water, weekend classes, and many visitors. Teamwork, dreamwork, community, atmosphere, energy, investigation, creation, sharing. I can see it all, but how to get there, from here, is almost a complete mystery.
What I do know is this: bringing dreams to life involves sacrifice, vision, change, effort, perseverence, work we love, work we don't love, help, time, pain, patience, and loads of that faith and perspective bit. Now, more than ever, is the time to dream. Get your hands dirty, get thinking, start in whatever ways you can and find the little jobs, classes, and connections that will have you ready to launch when the time does come to truly set things in motion. Focus on where you're headed, not how high the walls might seem or how scary the drop-offs. With that in mind, I'll leave you with a perspective worth reading.
The Invitation - Oriah Mountain Dreamer, Indian Elder
"It doesn`t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart`s longing.
It doesn`t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn`t interest me what planets are squaring your moon...I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life`s betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain! I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it, or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with JOY, mine or your own; if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstacy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, or to remember the limitations of being a human.
It doesn`t interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. I want to know if you can be faithful and therefore be trustworthy! I want to know if you can see beauty even when it is not pretty everyday, and if you can source your life from IT`S presence. I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "YES".
It doesn`t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done for the children.
It doesn`t interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn`t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments."
That's my chosen perspective for today. Enjoy!
P.S. I've added an adjust-a-job to my repertoire, and while it leaves me tired and frazzled at times, it's a means to my dream. And my excuse for late newsletters :).